Journal [TG, MC, First person]
09.08.21
I woke up today feeling kind of weird.
I mean, i'm no stranger to a hangover or two, but I
didn't even go that crazy last night. But the club can do that to you sometimes. Whatever, i must be getting old, i guess. My head is killing me, though.
I should really get some painkillers.
10.08.21
Well, My headache is gone.
The paracetamol i took did nothing, which sucks, but
at least i feel better today! I could've sworn
something felt off, though… I don't know, I've been
staring at myself in the mirror for a few minutes now
and I could've sworn my Jawline used to be sharper
than this. Hmmm, whatever, maybe i'm just
paranoid, or not as good looking as i thought i was!
Whatever. Anyways, I need to get to sleep. I have a
big day meeting a few friends tomorrow, so I need to
be well rested!
11.08.21
So, Today was interesting.
Stared myself in the mirror a bit more this morning, and i could’ve sworn things were worse. My Jaw hasn’t changed at all, and i could have sworn that my eyes didn’t used to be brown? I asked my friends about it today, and they looked at me as if i was crazy. Understandable, to be honest. I must just be imagining things.
Speaking of which, they introduced me to this new guy, Adrian. They say we met at the club a couple of days ago. But it’s funny, I don’t seem to remember? He remembers me though. Guess I must have gotten drunker than i thought after all.
12.08.21
I need to make a note to self to go and get a haircut. I know I’ve been due one for a little while, but it feels like it’s started growing more recently. I’ve never been a short hair kind of guy, but this shit is down to my shoulders almost. I’ll go someday soon.
Other than that, it’s been a quiet day, I suppose. Me and the guys have made a few more plans for the next few days, so we’ll see how that goes.
13.08.21
Woke up this morning with hella swollen lips. How strange. No clue what it is, but there’s probably some kinda reason, but regardless I hope it clears out soon.
Me and the boys are going into town tomorrow. No partying or anything, just hanging out. Apparently that Adrian guy is coming, too, so that’s exciting, I guess.
15.08.21
The last couple of days have been… Interesting. We went into town as planned and that went fine. Of course, My dumbass forgot to get a haircut whilst i was there. Oh well, honestly? I might keep it! This style is growing on me, I guess. Though it seems to be getting a little lighter? Anyway, I’ve been needing some new shoes recently, so I decided to buy some while i was there, but there must have been some kind of mistake, because they gave me a pair 5 sizes too small for me, which sucks. I’ve been meaning to return them, but i can’t find the receipt anywhere. I’m sure it’ll turn up soon.
Afterwards, we went for a meal. Nothing too special, we’re all pretty broke right now, but it was still pretty sweet. I was sat next to Adrian, and he was pretty cool, actually, We chatted for most of the night.
Now, so far so good, right? Wrong. I woke up today with the worst case of food poisoning ever. I’ve been throwing up all day and night, and damn, it’s left it’s toll on me. I’m so thin and pale, it’s crazy. Hopefully i’m fine in the morning.
16.08.21
Well. I’m feeling better. But I’m still a little concerned. The colour in my skin has hardly returned, and my arms are still really weak and thin. (I was unaware that was even a side effect of food poisoning) I called Adrian and he told me it’s nothing to worry about, so that made me feel a bit better. We were supposed to be going out again today, but understandably I’ve taken the day at home.
17.08.21
Okay, I’m definitely going crazy.
I’ve been staring at the mirror again. Nothing is visually any different this time. Difference is, I swear i’m looking at myself from a different perspective to yesterday. I promise you I was a good foot and a half taller yesterday. My whole thing is that I’m six foot! I can’t be any shorter than that! But that’s crazy, right? People don’t just shrink. Right? I must still be feeling the effect of this illness, because I’m thinking like a crazy person right now. Oh well, I’m out again with the guys tomorrow, so hopefully I’m okay by then. Fingers crossed!
18.08.21
Okay okay, I’m not crazy. I’m back to my normal height now! 5”4 And proud of it! And to think I thought I might have magically grown taller! Anyway, I went out again my the guys today. Adrian and all! I wore my brand new trainers, and I must say, they fit just fine! I don’t know what I was stressed about before, Perhaps they were just in the wrong box? Anyway, the guys pointed out that i was looking a bit thin when they saw me, but I just dismissed it. Hey, if anything, It’s a compliment, right?
I spent most of the day with Adrian. I don’t know, he has a cool energy to him, You know? i didn’t particularly buy anything, except for some hair dye, but you’ll find out about that soon!
We went to the same restaurant again, and I stayed well away from the Chicken i had last time! And I’m happy to report, No horrific, Identity crisis triggering food poisoning as of yet!
21.08.21
So, I haven’t written in here for a while, and I must say… I’ve been questioning my sexuality. The truth is, I’m not really getting it up to girls anymore. Matter of fact, I’m not really getting it up at all. And between you and me, I think it’s getting smaller? Or maybe I’m just imagining that part… But my point still stands. And the truth is, I just have so much fun when I’m around the guys, and Adrian, as well. I need some time to think, I suppose. How would I tell them? I’ll see…
22.08.21
Yeah, My dick is definitely getting smaller. It’s hard to tell, It’s like it’s vanishing, but I can’t put my finger on how big it was before, For reference, you know?
We went out again today. Nothing really happened, except I think I’m having and allergic reaction. Ever since i got home, My legs and chest have been itchy as hell, and I feel like they’re swelling a bit. I’m gonna go and get some cream for eat tomorrow, It’s really bugging me.
23.08.21
So today, I went and got the cream. But I have to say, it’s useless. All it’s done so far is singe the hair from my body. How pathetic! I look so bare! But honestly, it’s whatever. The swelling is getting far worse, so i guess hair is the least of my concerns. On a more positive note, remember the hair dye that i bought? Well, I decided to bleach my hair! I told you that my hair was getting lighter, for some reason, so i figured i might as well go all the way! And I must say, it’s so pretty! I can’t wait to show it off to Ad— The guys!
25.08.21
This is so embarrassing, but… I went and bought a bra today. The swelling on my chest has gotten so bad, that I need some kind of support. Adrian came along, which should have been embarrassing, but it was kind of.. reassuring? He told me that it was perfectly normal. He picked out the right size for me insisted i bought some underwear to go with it. I was kind of reluctant at first but hey, my dick is so small that it’s actually kind of comfortable.
Oh yeah, and I’m coming out to my friends the next time I see them, on the 28th. I’m so nervous! Wish me luck!
26.08.21
My tits fit in the bra just fine. I don’t know how Adrian knew what size to get, but he’s a genius for it! The swelling on my thighs has kind of reached a point and stopped. Man, I kind of wished they’d be bigger. My dick would be crushed by now. but it’s become so small, i barely notice it.
Anyway, I’m going out with Adrian again tomorrow, And the guys the next day, So I’m gonna get some rest!
27.08.21
My Vagina is back to how you’d expect it to be. I don’t know what that weird swelling was, but it’s over now, which is what really matters. Just in time for my da- My day out with Adrian.
We went all over the place looking for clothes and other stuff. I bought some more underwear and this really cute make-up pallet that I just love!
We went out for dinner again, and it was such a lovely time! He offered to pay for my food, and I enjoyed every second. Honestly? I wanted to kiss him, but i was just so nervous! Maybe next time…
28.08.21
I told my friends that I’m straight today.
They were all a bit confused, but mostly accepting. Like, I KNOW I was only a lesbian for a couple of months, But I’m the Kind of girl who likes to experiment, you know? Well, I’m glad that i got that off of my chest.
30.08.21
I went out with Adrian last night.
I don’t care that it wasn’t official. It was definitely a date. Instead of going for a meal, this time we went back to his place. God, He was so hot and I couldn’t help myself. By the end of the night, he was railing the shit out of me. He told me he was delighted in how I turned out, whatever that meant? But Regardless, I’m one happy girl!
I can’t wait to ask him to be my boyfriend!
Signed,
Emma.
I woke up today feeling kind of weird.
I mean, i'm no stranger to a hangover or two, but I
didn't even go that crazy last night. But the club can do that to you sometimes. Whatever, i must be getting old, i guess. My head is killing me, though.
I should really get some painkillers.
10.08.21
Well, My headache is gone.
The paracetamol i took did nothing, which sucks, but
at least i feel better today! I could've sworn
something felt off, though… I don't know, I've been
staring at myself in the mirror for a few minutes now
and I could've sworn my Jawline used to be sharper
than this. Hmmm, whatever, maybe i'm just
paranoid, or not as good looking as i thought i was!
Whatever. Anyways, I need to get to sleep. I have a
big day meeting a few friends tomorrow, so I need to
be well rested!
11.08.21
So, Today was interesting.
Stared myself in the mirror a bit more this morning, and i could’ve sworn things were worse. My Jaw hasn’t changed at all, and i could have sworn that my eyes didn’t used to be brown? I asked my friends about it today, and they looked at me as if i was crazy. Understandable, to be honest. I must just be imagining things.
Speaking of which, they introduced me to this new guy, Adrian. They say we met at the club a couple of days ago. But it’s funny, I don’t seem to remember? He remembers me though. Guess I must have gotten drunker than i thought after all.
12.08.21
I need to make a note to self to go and get a haircut. I know I’ve been due one for a little while, but it feels like it’s started growing more recently. I’ve never been a short hair kind of guy, but this shit is down to my shoulders almost. I’ll go someday soon.
Other than that, it’s been a quiet day, I suppose. Me and the guys have made a few more plans for the next few days, so we’ll see how that goes.
13.08.21
Woke up this morning with hella swollen lips. How strange. No clue what it is, but there’s probably some kinda reason, but regardless I hope it clears out soon.
Me and the boys are going into town tomorrow. No partying or anything, just hanging out. Apparently that Adrian guy is coming, too, so that’s exciting, I guess.
15.08.21
The last couple of days have been… Interesting. We went into town as planned and that went fine. Of course, My dumbass forgot to get a haircut whilst i was there. Oh well, honestly? I might keep it! This style is growing on me, I guess. Though it seems to be getting a little lighter? Anyway, I’ve been needing some new shoes recently, so I decided to buy some while i was there, but there must have been some kind of mistake, because they gave me a pair 5 sizes too small for me, which sucks. I’ve been meaning to return them, but i can’t find the receipt anywhere. I’m sure it’ll turn up soon.
Afterwards, we went for a meal. Nothing too special, we’re all pretty broke right now, but it was still pretty sweet. I was sat next to Adrian, and he was pretty cool, actually, We chatted for most of the night.
Now, so far so good, right? Wrong. I woke up today with the worst case of food poisoning ever. I’ve been throwing up all day and night, and damn, it’s left it’s toll on me. I’m so thin and pale, it’s crazy. Hopefully i’m fine in the morning.
16.08.21
Well. I’m feeling better. But I’m still a little concerned. The colour in my skin has hardly returned, and my arms are still really weak and thin. (I was unaware that was even a side effect of food poisoning) I called Adrian and he told me it’s nothing to worry about, so that made me feel a bit better. We were supposed to be going out again today, but understandably I’ve taken the day at home.
17.08.21
Okay, I’m definitely going crazy.
I’ve been staring at the mirror again. Nothing is visually any different this time. Difference is, I swear i’m looking at myself from a different perspective to yesterday. I promise you I was a good foot and a half taller yesterday. My whole thing is that I’m six foot! I can’t be any shorter than that! But that’s crazy, right? People don’t just shrink. Right? I must still be feeling the effect of this illness, because I’m thinking like a crazy person right now. Oh well, I’m out again with the guys tomorrow, so hopefully I’m okay by then. Fingers crossed!
18.08.21
Okay okay, I’m not crazy. I’m back to my normal height now! 5”4 And proud of it! And to think I thought I might have magically grown taller! Anyway, I went out again my the guys today. Adrian and all! I wore my brand new trainers, and I must say, they fit just fine! I don’t know what I was stressed about before, Perhaps they were just in the wrong box? Anyway, the guys pointed out that i was looking a bit thin when they saw me, but I just dismissed it. Hey, if anything, It’s a compliment, right?
I spent most of the day with Adrian. I don’t know, he has a cool energy to him, You know? i didn’t particularly buy anything, except for some hair dye, but you’ll find out about that soon!
We went to the same restaurant again, and I stayed well away from the Chicken i had last time! And I’m happy to report, No horrific, Identity crisis triggering food poisoning as of yet!
21.08.21
So, I haven’t written in here for a while, and I must say… I’ve been questioning my sexuality. The truth is, I’m not really getting it up to girls anymore. Matter of fact, I’m not really getting it up at all. And between you and me, I think it’s getting smaller? Or maybe I’m just imagining that part… But my point still stands. And the truth is, I just have so much fun when I’m around the guys, and Adrian, as well. I need some time to think, I suppose. How would I tell them? I’ll see…
22.08.21
Yeah, My dick is definitely getting smaller. It’s hard to tell, It’s like it’s vanishing, but I can’t put my finger on how big it was before, For reference, you know?
We went out again today. Nothing really happened, except I think I’m having and allergic reaction. Ever since i got home, My legs and chest have been itchy as hell, and I feel like they’re swelling a bit. I’m gonna go and get some cream for eat tomorrow, It’s really bugging me.
23.08.21
So today, I went and got the cream. But I have to say, it’s useless. All it’s done so far is singe the hair from my body. How pathetic! I look so bare! But honestly, it’s whatever. The swelling is getting far worse, so i guess hair is the least of my concerns. On a more positive note, remember the hair dye that i bought? Well, I decided to bleach my hair! I told you that my hair was getting lighter, for some reason, so i figured i might as well go all the way! And I must say, it’s so pretty! I can’t wait to show it off to Ad— The guys!
25.08.21
This is so embarrassing, but… I went and bought a bra today. The swelling on my chest has gotten so bad, that I need some kind of support. Adrian came along, which should have been embarrassing, but it was kind of.. reassuring? He told me that it was perfectly normal. He picked out the right size for me insisted i bought some underwear to go with it. I was kind of reluctant at first but hey, my dick is so small that it’s actually kind of comfortable.
Oh yeah, and I’m coming out to my friends the next time I see them, on the 28th. I’m so nervous! Wish me luck!
26.08.21
My tits fit in the bra just fine. I don’t know how Adrian knew what size to get, but he’s a genius for it! The swelling on my thighs has kind of reached a point and stopped. Man, I kind of wished they’d be bigger. My dick would be crushed by now. but it’s become so small, i barely notice it.
Anyway, I’m going out with Adrian again tomorrow, And the guys the next day, So I’m gonna get some rest!
27.08.21
My Vagina is back to how you’d expect it to be. I don’t know what that weird swelling was, but it’s over now, which is what really matters. Just in time for my da- My day out with Adrian.
We went all over the place looking for clothes and other stuff. I bought some more underwear and this really cute make-up pallet that I just love!
We went out for dinner again, and it was such a lovely time! He offered to pay for my food, and I enjoyed every second. Honestly? I wanted to kiss him, but i was just so nervous! Maybe next time…
28.08.21
I told my friends that I’m straight today.
They were all a bit confused, but mostly accepting. Like, I KNOW I was only a lesbian for a couple of months, But I’m the Kind of girl who likes to experiment, you know? Well, I’m glad that i got that off of my chest.
30.08.21
I went out with Adrian last night.
I don’t care that it wasn’t official. It was definitely a date. Instead of going for a meal, this time we went back to his place. God, He was so hot and I couldn’t help myself. By the end of the night, he was railing the shit out of me. He told me he was delighted in how I turned out, whatever that meant? But Regardless, I’m one happy girl!
I can’t wait to ask him to be my boyfriend!
Signed,
Emma.
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